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2020-05-09 08:07 pm

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Shiroyume Saki
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A fallen Moon Princess. Now tainted by human sin, she is unable to rejoin her perfect family on the Moon. After throwing a villainous tantrum, she was banished to a high school life. Saki is now learning to appreciate humans as she lives among them, even deciding to be a Student Council President. When she gets emotional, she creates bad weather.
moonfalling: (03)
2018-05-09 08:08 pm

personality of .

At the core of Saki's character is a dilemma the kind worth mentioning right off the bat: Saki is not human. She is an alien from the Moon. As such, she was not born with some common human norms. Most notably, Saki Shiroyume was born without emotions.

Moon People are considered to be the origins of humans, though that fact is still debated among some. What if important to note is the undeniable relationship between them: Moon People are perfect human... If by perfect you mean 'hallow shells that can do no wrong, or right, or anything.' At Saki's core, her heart should not know happiness or unhappiness, hate or love, peace or war. Even to this day, she struggles with this fact: Her perfect Moon heart simply was not born with the capacity for emotion. It was born to be as empty as possible... and as perfect as possible.

This changed for Saki when she fell to Earth. Earth is filled with the sin of Emotion. On Earth, Saki was exposed not just to sins but to virtues. The potions she takes from Moon Rabbits are meant to soften the blow and dampen the emotional onslaught, making it something that she can deal with. Otherwise, Saki gets overwhelmed by her emotions and loses her head. She does not know how to deal with big emotions in a healthy manner, so guzzles her potions to wash them away.

But that coping mechanism has been taken from her. Part of Saki's imprisonment is meant to force her to learn to live her new life without help. Though this Saki has had two years to adjust, she still isn't perfectly ready to handle her own heart.

Which means two major things for Saki's personality: On one hand, she is still experimenting with who she is and who she wants to be. Her emotions somethings come as alien and fake as she navigates her fallen heart.

On the other hand, she has horrible emotional outbursts that she often cannot control. So Saki treads a line between being so controlled she comes off as artificial, and an out of control child on a tantrum.

Starting with her artificial side, Saki is motivated to be a perfect person. She still has not let got of this notion of going to the Moon again, even when adapting to her human heart basically shuts that door for her. She wants to be a good girl and gain approval. Saki is a hardworking girl who strives to be the best at everything she approaches. She wants to be 'perfect' like a Moon Person should be.
This drove Saki to run for student council in her first year and to push herself to excel at all her hobbies. Saki doesn't realize it consciously, but she tries to avoid things that she doesn't think she can do perfectly. If she fails, Saki obsesses and gets distressed until someone approves of her efforts. Her hope to someday go home is wasted, but still drives her to try.

One way that she thinks she is achieving perfection is by always smiling. You might think that someone who didn't have emotionless would default to deadpan, but Saki defaults to a sunny smile. Often, her smile is an authentic display of how much she enjoys living... But sometimes, it does seem inappropriate for a situation or simply come off as alien. Likewise, her smiles can express her anger or sadness just as easily as they display sadness. When Saki feels a strong feeling coming on, she will throw up her smile because she knows smiling = good. She does not want to display negative emotions.

Negative emotions stress Saki out... Well, they stress anyone out. But Saki especially. She knows that she has a record of exploding and being an emotional, and dangerous, mess. She is always looking for methods to manage her emotions, like the potions or meditation. That doesn't mean Saki has actually found a way to truly handle herself. Saki's only trusted tactic is to smile, because she's really good at that, until she can escape to somewhere safe.
Safe used to mean being alone, where she could not hurt anyone while she screamed or cried. In her new high school days, 'Safe' also meant being with her best friend Akane. Saki does see humans are her "emotional-senpais," but finds that shameful. Akane made the list because he knows all about her problems and has his own problems with his temper. Saki doesn't feel like she has to compete to be 'perfect' around him, making him a safe person to vent with.

Despite her obsession with being perfect herself, Saki is oddly attracted to imperfect things. If she really likes you, she is accidentally insulting you. Saki treasures a broken tea cup, for example, or a skirt that has a slight tear on it. Anything she perceives as perfect she also perceives as a challenge. It's exhausting. Whether she's trying to keep up with another person's 'perfect' kindness, or be worth the nice clothing she is wearing, Saki subconsciously competes. She knows that she only relaxes around imperfect people and objects, so tries to surround herself with them.

Saki herself is no stranger to imperfection. She understands now that she was struck by sins when she first fell to Earth. Doesn't mean she has put forth a ton of effort to correct them. Saki does have expensive tastes. She does like to buy fancy cosmetics and look her best, as she also likes fancy style. Saki relaxes around imperfection, but she can't seem to curve her greed either. She is still a stranger to sins and indulges a bit too much, because she enjoys the momentary rush and satisfaction.

Likewise, Saki is no stranger to sins like wrath. Anger is by far the hardest feeling for Saki to control. She tries very hard, but as an emotionless princess she hasn't had many chances to train empathy. So when Saki's temper flares, it is very hard to calm her. In the heat of the moment, Saki doesn't think about other peoples' feelings or reasons: She is too consumed by her own.

Being accidentally insensitive is another flaw of hers. Saki is still learning. Sometimes, she will say something rude of distasteful without realizing it. If no one takes the time to correct it, Saki will continue to make the same social mistakes over and over again. She is called the Ice Princess at school precisely because she is accidentally cold and hurtful to others. Though it may often be very clear that Saki has no cruel intentions, that does not stop her from being painfully cruel.

Fortunately, this is something Saki is vaguely aware of. If it is brought to her attention, she will make an effort to correct the behavior. In fact, Saki is always looking to correct herself. She gets oddly excited when people critique her and give her a chance to improve herself. And though it may take her two or three, maybe more, times to correct a behavior, she does almost always succeed.

A part of Saki has accepted that she will never go back to the Moon... But she still holds hope of going home. Saki's most dangerous flaw to herself is an aloof ability to ignore things. She ignores her emotions by smiling, and she ignores her grief about the moon by trying to be a perfect human. Saki has a hard time letting things go. She can be very stubborn. After all... being wrong means being imperfect. She is okay with being wrong if she can improve and get closer to perfect, but if she is wrong and has way to get better? Saki doesn't know what to do and will pretend those things don't exist.
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2017-12-31 03:09 pm

History of.

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Saki was born on the moon. An outlandish claim, clearly. She wouldn't be one to speak of it, since it is a memory from so very long ago. She was the one and only Princess born to the Eastern Moon Kingdom. Though the memory is fuzzy, Saki does recall how she had a beautiful mother and handsome father. There was no reason for other children, because Moon People were absolutely perfect: Saki was the perfect child, perfect heir, and there was no need for two.

Her kingdom on the moon was very dull; there was no suffering, but at the cost of no happiness. Everyone was simply "content" and "perfect." On the Moon, one had no reason to be emotional. Everyone was a cookie cutter shape and face, with an assigned purpose and assigned ending. As such, there was also no reason to love anyone particularly strongly, or dislike any one person to the point of "hate." Moon People had no likes, no dislikes, no love, no hatred, no unhappiness, no happiness... They simply existed, until their purpose was fulfilled.

One purpose of certain Moon People fell to the rabbits of the moon. Moon Rabbits were exceptionally wise beings that had transcended from Earth. They were now known as scholars, who had mastered the art of turning imperfection into perfection... In other words, they were Alchemists. These alchemists tended especially to Saki, their Princess, and kept her supplied with the alchemic formulas that kept her eternally beautifully.

Those alchemists were, however, dangerous. Because they understood that in order to achieve perfection, one had to go through a process of purifying their ugly God-given heart. It was because the young princess had access to her Kingdom's alchemist bunnies that she was able to hear their stories of how the ugly hearts on Earth could theoretically be purified enough that they could become the hearts of Moon People.

What caught Saki's attention in particular was this idea of anything being imperfect. As she heard more and more from the careless rabbit alchemists, she became more and more curious... Until finally, the sin of her curiosity got the best of her. One night, when the Alchemist Rabbits were heading out to extract material from human hearts, Saki snuck off with them...

And just like that, the Moon Kingdom lost their Princess. The instant that Saki hit ground on a full moon's winter night, she was soiled. Her perfect heart was tainted by Earth and filled with emotions. This caused her a great deal of panic at first, which proved to be very dangerous. Saki's out of control emotions came forth as a blizzard. She was eventually discovered by humans, who took Saki to a local shrine.

Saki's ethereal beauty and strange ability to control snowy weather led them to believe she was a "Yuki-Onna." She was taught meditation and other techniques to control her emotions, thus ending the eternal blizzard that she had almost cursed the nearby village with. Confused and still frightened, she allowed herself to be housed in the shrine while she figured out her predicament.

She had no reason to distrust the humans, because Saki had never known the concept of 'betrayal' or 'cruelty' on the Moon. Saki stayed in the shrine thinking it was an act of good will. She came to realize that Moon People carried certain powers on Earth, which had served no purpose in her perfect Kingdom. Saki could in deed control the weather, which had been irrelevant back home. She accepted the identity of a Yuki-Onna for simplicity's sake, then decided that she was ready to go home and tell everyone what she had learned about herself.

Saki was not allowed to leave. The villagers insisted that she stayed. At first, they bribed her with luxuries of Earth. Saki was ecstatic and they were able to ground her for months and years longer. She had never experienced gluttony on the Moon, so was overwhelmed with greed for finer silks, delicious foods, warm baths, fun toys, and beautiful trinkets. In exchange, her pride was swollen by public displays of her powers. She loved to put on shows, often asked to impress villagers with how she could create winter from nothing. But, eventually, she did grow bored of it all. Saki discovered a longing in her heart for her parents-- a love that she had never experienced on the Moon-- and desperately wanted to see them. She wanted to finally express this warm emotion that had been so foreign before.

This time, she was greeted with hostilities. The villagers did not want for her to leave. Saki had been a stranger to the emotions she was used to manipulate. The people of the shrine were now empowered by the fact they had a God in their midst. On the flipside, the villagers were terrified of her leaving: She could ensure a good harvest through her weather manipulation, but she could also ruin it with her eternal winters. Everyone was desperate to keep her.

When the attempts to ground her turned into threats, Saki had enough. She used her powers to free herself of their captivity. Saki realized she was being used and was horribly angry. As she fled, she covered her tracks with a blizzard and disappeared up the mountain. She had no idea how to get home, but hoped she could reach the Moon by climbing the tallest mountain. This obviously did not work. Instead, Saki became known to haunt said mountain. Finally, a Moon Rabbit scout located the young princess... and brought her terrible news. Saki's heart had been tainted by the sins of humans. She had learned gluttony and greed, pride and wrath, and even the sins of love and hatred. She could not reach the moon with a heart weighed down by emotions.

In that moment, Saki learned to be devastated. She cried for the first time in her life. She had no way of knowing how long she cried and mourned for the Moon either. But when she snapped out of it, Saki was angry. She blamed the humans for capturing her and soiling her. She hated all of their sins and all of their feelings, and she hated herself for having them too. So whenever Saki saw a human on her mountain, she would lure them to their deaths. Sometimes she would straight up murder them. She did not entirely understand how horrific death was to humans, but she would probably have just been encouraged by the knowledge at that point. Saki became the Yuki-onna of legends, even if that was something of a lie.

The only ones brave enough to confront Saki were her old Moon Rabbits. They were interested in the girl who had fallen from the moon. Like they used to gossip about making a human 'perfect' enough for the moon, they wondered if they could ever make Saki perfect again. Which was becoming a visual problem: Saki's skin was blooming with red burns, as if from the sun, which seemed to be a side effect of Earth. She was supplied with plenty of her old Moon Rabbit potions over the next few years, with the goal of turning her back into the perfect Moon Princess.

Saki didn't know the difference, but she was still immortal from drinking the Moon Rabbits' potions. And she regained her physical beauty from the potion guzzling as well. And eventually, after years of putting the new potions in her system, Saki even began to lose touch with her emotions again. Her anger faded away and Saki lost motivation to continue her mountainside rampage.

But she was not entirely free of her Earthly sins. Her greed for luxuries like warm baths and beautiful clothing eventually got the best of her again, driving Saki to return to the village. It had been over sixty years and very few people remembered her. To Saki, it felt like yesterday.

The beautiful young girl wandering off of the mountain side was welcomed warmly. However, she was not worshipped like before. Saki did catch the attention of the youkai and similar spirits in the area, who taught her to stay quiet about her powers. Apparently, stories where humans greedily took advantage of non-humans were becoming more and more common. Saki was comforted and advised to lay low in the modern age.

For decades after, Saki lived a quieter life. She lived in human villages, and the secret youkai living among the normalcy. She was also supplied with those potions. Saki continued to take them, fearful of seeing her imperfection on her face again. They continued to mute Saki's emotions, leaving her as a 'perfect' woman: Agreeable, quiet, and peaceful. For all of the wrong reasons, Saki began to attract attention as being perfect wife material. She would move around every year to start anew, so one one would notice her immortality, and managed a problem free lifestyle.

What problem she did face came at least 100 years after her falling. There existed on this Earth an "Immortal Council," which was established in the modern era (1980's, to be exact,) to regulate immortal beings and encourage/force them to integrate with mortal society. Saki did not have any problems with them until some time in 2015.

By this time, Saki had moved to Hawaii with some of the youkai.